Well, I suppose it has come to this...

Ickybod and Ristar (my two brothers) have lost their motivation. Not in schoolwork, but in their...lives, I suppose. Neither of them are happy as each day passes by, but they fake happiness in front of our parents. I can see that they are unhappy, but for our parents not to see it...well...I find it unusual. Parents are supposed to be able to see what goes on in the lives of their children or child. But neither my mother or father can see that my brothers are unhappy. I want to tell them, but...I cannot bring myself to say anything about it to them. I will ask my brothers what is wrong, but...I feel as if I let them down. I am their older brother; I should be looking out for them. I should be helping them, but I am uncertain that I can help them...

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...I feel like a failure...